| rdfs:comment | - FROM: Izzy Mandel TO: Murk Oslo SUBJECT: What scares me... Murk, Remember what I told you in my last message? About how scared I am? Well, I figured out what scares me, and it's not the bots. I mean, yeah, they're horrifying, but when we finally come face to face, I'll either live or die, and the starkness and simplicity of that binary is... well, reassuring. That's what terrifies me, Murk. No crisp, reassuring binary here. I'm loving what I hate... or hated. So does that mean my entire life was just a pose... or that the person I was is already dead? Love to you and little Syd, Izzy
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| abstract | - FROM: Izzy Mandel TO: Murk Oslo SUBJECT: What scares me... Murk, Remember what I told you in my last message? About how scared I am? Well, I figured out what scares me, and it's not the bots. I mean, yeah, they're horrifying, but when we finally come face to face, I'll either live or die, and the starkness and simplicity of that binary is... well, reassuring. What scares me is how much I like this. How a DEW feels in my hands. The kick of a coilgun. Jesus, Murk, we lived in a squat for three years! Matching mohawks! Spent our days throbbing off Razorwing or Duster, nights thrashing off slamfunk gigs! We were goddamn anarchists! And now this? THIS? Discipline, jargon, uniforms? And I LIKE it??? That's what terrifies me, Murk. No crisp, reassuring binary here. I'm loving what I hate... or hated. So does that mean my entire life was just a pose... or that the person I was is already dead? I don't know... I try to tell myself it's a different kind of war. Survival, not profits. I try to tell myself it's just a different kind of direct action. I mean - what are the bots if not the ultimate capitalist stooges, right? But thinking just tires me out. All I know is we've got to fight until Zero Dawn is ready. If I end up surviving this, guess I can worry about my politics then. Love to you and little Syd, Izzy
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